The ideal family, the ideal me, the ideal partner, are screwing you up. When you compare what you have to what you were taught to desire, you end up miserable. This is where alcohol, drugs and everything abusable comes of use. You want alibi to enjoy sin, but not anymore, for it is becoming legal. Ruining the old joy of the rebel.
Your sexual intensity has everything to do with your childhood and the repressed. Here’s a story. Pamela was claiming herself to be asexual. This if analyzed, leads us back to her childhood. Deprived from food and pleasure at a very young age she never witnessed satisfaction and can only define it as per the oxford dictionary: “the good feeling that you have when you have achieved something or when something that you wanted to happen does happen”. Desire, now that she’s alien to. Aimlessly roaming the planet, she had zero desire and satisfaction but she owned happiness. No wonder nobody found it completely. It seemed to be outside desire, outside satisfaction and between Pamela’s hands entirely. Seek Pamela, for she is generous and will give you a bite of her own happiness.
